yoooo

 
due to confusion, let me elaborate and explain myself a little bit:

I've realized that it's not male that I identify as, but neither male nor female. When I first came out as ftm, I only did so with the mindset there I only had two options - one or the other. And the mere idea of being perceived or looking at myself as female was just absolutely wrong for me and stirred up so much negative emotion and made me feel horrible.

So  when I learned about the trans community I went for it because that’s where I thought that I belonged and if I didn’t identify as female then that only left me with male, right? I mean that’s what I thought at the time, and so I went through the motions with the idea pressed to the point that I genuinely believed that by the time I passed and get myself settled as male that I’d finally fit myself and be happy.

But as time went by, I grew up abit more and learned more about myself, there are so many things about myself that made me realize that it wasn’t male that I identified as, got upset because it wasn’t female either, and with time I realized that I’m somewhere in the Androgyne and with that being said, everything makes much more sense to me and I feel less like I’m trying to fit into a costume for others to easily label me, but I’m me. uvu-